Have I told you?

Have I told you that I have always believed that as much as I love taking photographs… I know that it will be the death of me too… I live and die for photographs… memories and moments I know I can never erase through photographs… I am addicted to reliving the glory days of a certain moment or event. It keeps me sane and alive.

This also goes to my writings as well. As I grow older, I realize how depended I am to writing about everything. The things I experienced or felt, most of them have been written, and therefore, I am still clinging to the past like a maniac retard, and yet, I’ve never felt so much alive than ever. Appreciating every moment that ever happened in my life and to be able to read it over again, is just a blessing. For me.

At this very moment, my heart is aching (in a good way) aching because it all happened. The pictures I went through, it all happened and had passed by just like that. It was crazy, recklessly fun. It was hell of a ride. And tell you what, it feels pretty damn good! Hahaha. I can laugh at my own foolishness and naiveness. No one else can. Only me, myself and I.

Which brings me to the point where I don’t really care of what people think nowadays about me. I’ve done quite enough to try to impress.

Now I just want to be.

And let me say it again, photographs and writings till I die. 🙂

Have I told you?

Fun Freelancing for a Good Cause – Part II

Let me continue, what I have started.

My journey still continues with Axiata and AxN in helping fulfill the wishes of these two boys. The first time being a freelance fixer, I thought was just easy, translating and well, analyzing the situation for a few foreigners who have no clue to where they are and how to get to where they want to and etc. But during the meetings, I was involved more than I thought I would. They needed more people to help their task in Jakarta. This task also was not easy with the tight deadline that was only dependent on the availability of one particular host, with that, there was no other way that it could be extended or so.

First of all, let me tell you what Adit and Benny (the two boys I was talking about), wished for. They wished they could have more information about how to become a doctor with also a bigger library including upgraded computers. Now, now you see, with those kind of wishes, that means there are lots to be done, not other than, interior designing itself. First, I thought, hey, maybe they already have someone in mind to redecorate the learning center of SOS Children’s Village, but as I studied their conversation among the clients, nope. Nothing. Nil. They had no interior designer ready for the job, and suddenly, one of the clients of Axiata turns to me and asks the question, “Do you know any interior designer from Jakarta who can help us?” As tricky as this question was asked to me, I was not quite sure, whether I should say no, not I can think of, but with a quick response , I said, “Yes.” But my brain was encrypting of all the people I knew, and not of them I knew were good interior designers that can work as fast. Damn. I was in deep shit.

So the meeting ended that day, with them heading back to KL. Zoe gave me my fee and told me that she would contact me again, if there are any more assistance she would need in the future. I, for one hand, did not want to hope or wish. I just thanked her and went home.

Two days later, I got an email from Zoe, saying that she needed me to do all these things, and asking me about my fee, for a month. I was like wow… This is awesome. I would be paid for a month and well, I would have something to do as well. Yippee! So I contacted Ibu Dian, the lady friend of my dad who gave me this job at the first place, and set my price which completely blown me away, this was just awesome. But let me tell you something, through awesomeness, there is always something you have to go through before the awesomeness sticks by you. You have to go through a lot of shit (pardon my language but hey) first to really really savor it all. Believe me, this piece of writing here is getting there.

1. First task, find an interior designer who was available, and is able work fast as in just 1 week.

ARGHHHH! This was a pain. Who would want to work that fast and well, how? I was at my feet, finding someone who would want to help. Once I did, I pitched them to the client. They seem to like what they saw. I was happy, but something was lurking behind me. I could not figure it out but something was but went with it.

2. Second task, ask interior designer to come to the site and meet up with client to discuss further matters.

Now, I thought, I had it all in my hands, the interior designer said okay, the clients were okay. But turns out, the night before we had an internal meeting with the interior designer at SOS, Cibubur. The interior designer bails on me last minute, saying that he could not do the job, and I was frantic! I could not think of any other options. My head was going to exploded because I knew that I could not find any interior designer in the middle of the night. And that was my one job, my crucial task for this job. With my head spinning, thankfully the interior designer who bailed on me gave me another option. He helped me find another interior designer who could execute the job and gave me this other guy’s phone number. Immediately dial the number, and took my chances. I didn’t really care anymore, I needed to find an interior designer who is willing to do the job. And in my heart, I was just praying to God, asking him to assist and guide me through. I only said this, “I only want to do something good for the kids. I only want to do good. Nothing more, nothing less. I want this to happen. I just want to help..” I chanted this mantra over and over, and at that time, this new guy, on the phone was more confident than ever about making this work. His name was Adit, nickname Didiet.

The next morning, we were able to meet up in SOS Cibubur and my client who I already informed about the changes of interior designer, talked it through and explain on the condition, their wishes to make a whole new different look for the computer room and library. Additional also another room where children can be more expressive such as music, costumes, basically anything to do with art.

So at least that was settled for now. The client has met the interior designer. My main job was done, but the adventures along the way, was going to be hell of a ride.

Continuing later in Part III…

Fun Freelancing for a Good Cause – Part II

Fun Freelancing for a Good Cause – Part I

As you know that, ever since I didn’t continue my contract with Filmogue, I’ve been free as a bird. Been making my own decisions about life and all, and it may look a little selfish, but for me, its something that I have to do eventually before I regret my days later in life.  Thankfully until today, I am still fine and breathing fresh air. Also life is getting more exciting by the day. Here’s how it all started.

A few months back, my dad has been putting out the word for me that I was looking for a job which landed him, lending a word or two to his old colleague, who worked with him in the USAID and ASEAN back in the days. She and her husband owns a production house. Surprisingly its an international production house, that has lots of freelancers who worked dedicatedly to this very interesting executive producer, Ibu Dian. She has made this company way back, and has been doing it ever since. Working along side with many international broadcasting companies, she has brought her own production house as one of the most reliable international production house in Jakarta.

Dad told me that she was a very interesting woman who enjoyed her job and takes pride in what she does. She is a very strong woman, and also hilariously fun too. So my dad says to her this, “Why don’t you talk to my daughter, she used to be a project manager.. She might be able to help you.” And so there you have it, I cannot back down on that, can I? especially when my dad has already referred me to her, I followed dad’s request into meeting Ibu Dian in person. I really had no idea what’s to come, but I told myself I should just give it a try and see how it goes. Just an innocent chat will do, won’t hurt, right?

Ibu Dian and I met at Epicentrum, and we exchanged our experiences, and seems to me, she was actually doing the job I did last year only this lady was more professional and much more experienced than I was. She knew her grounds and really knows how to make it all work out. Not like me! Me, who was not-experienced in working as a producer should be doing and did not enjoy it enough. I was honest to her about wanting to work for a lighter side of things and that I also wanted to go back to school by looking for a scholarship too. She was really helpfully, and so elegantly straightforward in things, I thought she was cool. We ended our 2 hour chat, with her telling me that she’ll look for something for me that I might be interested it. I don’t know what but I did had a bit of doubt of what will come along.

BUT NOW, it gets interesting.  2 weeks later, suddenly, she emails me asking me if I would be interested in being a “Fixer” for a TV program from Singapore, AxN for a day. In my mind, I was like thinking, okay, if I had to do something like being a producer again for the day, I would kinda kill myself, because you all know that I don’t like counting budgets and all. and on the other hand, I needed a job and well, money of course. The last 2 months was great and all, but seriously if you don’t get something on the side, might as well just go under. So I thought, what the heck, I’ll just do it anyway. When I was referred to the AxN crew, they actually handed me to the other client, to help them sort out a few things and assist them for consulting on the site. Hmm. Okay, been thrown back to the client. At first, I was not quite sure about it but I already jumped into it so I could not go back either. And what the hell is FIXER!?!!! Haven’t heard such a thing. Seriously. Good God!

But anyway, eventually someone called me up, her name was Zoe. She was from a media agency in Kuala Lumpur called Zenith, who was handling Axiata Malaysia as her client to help them with their CSR program. Turns out their CSR program is connected to AxN, (the TV channel we usually watch for Wipeout Australia or Hawaii-O Five) who will be shooting for their CSR program. It will be a new TV program they will be launching next year about fulfilling wishes of not so fortunate kids across Asia. They will be picked in each countries and Axiata will be helping out in fullfilling their wishes. The ones who are picked in Indonesia, are two boys from a foster home called the SOS Children’s Village in Cibubur. And my mission was to take Zoe from Zenith and clients from Axiata to SOS Cibubur to connect them, and address them with their plans to help these two special boys named Adit and Benny, to fulfill their wishes.

And the adventures begins as a Freelancer Fixer for a Good Cause.

Will write it in another post, kay….

Fun Freelancing for a Good Cause – Part I

Found Treasure!

a lousy day today. woke up too late. didn’t know what to do. not really good for me but i got back on my feet again, when i helped mom to clear some boxes in the gallery room. we all sorted out the boxes we’ve never touched since we moved to our current address. 

looking over boxes to boxes, i found the most precious, priceless treasure of all, a box filled with photo albums and inside were photos of my late grandfather. with his wife and only son, my dad! ahhhh it was such a refreshing feeling to find those albums and looked over them and got me thinking clearer again. on my life and how i wanted to be later. i wanted to be like my grandfather. a person with great charisma, pride and he went around the world. he was heard, and respected. going through the pages of the photo albums, oh how long i wish he could be here right now, and tell me stories of his past.. i’m so proud i can’t even describe it at all. 

i want to be as ‘rich’ as he was. i really do. Image

Found Treasure!

Introducing “Toble”

For those who do find the time to read my blog, must know what this picture means.

Yup, its my new camera I told you about. Meet “Toble”… My companion for the roads and lots of adventures to come… So in love it, I can’t stop smiling seeing all the pictures I had with Toble on my first weeks… Anyway, this picture was taken by a friend who has happen to be a young editor/videographer. Gathered two of my friends to go hunting for shots. And this was one of them. I have several from Toble’s awesomeness, but haven’t edited a few. Will show them a bit later, kay…

my new companion
Introducing “Toble”

New Blog for A Special Someone

Got an epiphany just today. Also with the help of meeting relatives on this festive day of Eid Mubarak, I thought, hey, why don’t I make a blog dedicated to my late grandfather, whom I was very close with until I was around 7 years old.

I remembered him being the most loving grandfather that ever lived, but also heard stories of how strict he was with his only son, which is my dad. His nephews and nieces also remembered my grandfather as one noble guy and so it got me curious.

I tend to dream of him sometimes, and when I do, I usually get really real things happening because of him. Like he’s giving me signs and all. And with that sometimes it can be really creepy cool. If you know what I mean. LOL.

I knew for one thing he also was very good in writing. He loved to write books and essays. And many had looked up to him, that is why I have a good feeling about this blog I’m making for him, as a therapy for me to start opening up to things that have been on my mind. I know I won’t be getting a straight answer, but at least, I’m writing to someone out there, who has been there for me when I was a kid, and I’m pretty sure he IS around, listening and watching. 🙂

I sometimes think that because I have this shintadharmayu blog, over here, sometimes it sounds obnoxious at times. Complaining to whom, I don’t know. And sometimes insecure. But because now I’ll be writing to him, it kinda gives me to the warmth of thought that he would understand more on life and what’s it all about than me as I am still figuring out many things in life.

I will still continue on making entries on this one. But basically when I need advice or questions and just pure storytelling, I’d like to imagine that my grandfather is reading it. Don’t you think? No? Ahh.. I’m doing it anyway…

So guys, if you’re interested, just open http://letterstosunoto.wordpress.com/

I think it will be a fun project for myself. Wish me luck kay?

New Blog for A Special Someone