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Oh my goodness… It is already 2017 ! My word!

Now is it just me but 2016 passed by soooo quickly… I kinda lost track. It has been so fast, it seemed like a blink of an eye. People say that means we were damn busy… some say its because we were as productive as we were suppose to be.

Don’t get me wrong about 2016… Lots of good things happened last year, but I just wanted to fast forward and just get straight into 2017. I believe that things will be better. Many events and milestones to look forward to. All I want to do it pray that it will eventually happen as wished for.

One of the things I wanted to promise myself, was to write in my blog again. I haven’t been updating my blog in ages, it’s a disgrace. I love writing. I can’t get enough of writing, but these few years back, I was too distracted by things that made me think now, it was useless. Things that really don’t matter. Superficial things.

So I’m going to dedicate myself to writing everyday in my blog no matter what the topic is. And then less social media. Like cut down on a few things and focus on the computer for real research, job seeking, college hunting, writing blogs, and photo editing and etc.

Hang on, a little break from this. I’m going to re-watch Star Wars : Attack of the Clones . Continue soon..


Small and Long Chats

Lately, I have been blessed in meeting all sorts of people that made my day much better.

I will tell you the people who lid me up this past week.

1. Dhee and Julez

These two girls have been my dearest friends since forever. More than 10 years, these girls has made me laugh and smile through my days of growing up. We don’t regularly meet, but when we do, we would already have these precious moments that I cannot really describe in words. They have been there for me, at times when I need them. Never have they thought of me as anyone stranger than life, as they have accepted me the way I am today, and will always be. Julez is in Jakarta at the moment, while waiting on her break-through of her digital e-book and as for Dhee, the newly wed and already pregnant, is working her way in finishing her school, also teaching English in a nearby campus in Jakarta. We, three, have reunited after an absence of 8 years. Definitely enjoyed the day in one of the oldest mall in J-town, and continued with a half an hour photo session back in my place for old time sakes. We will be meeting again soon this coming week before Julez goes back to Riau, where she lives. This small rendezvous was a very very fun one.

2. My uncle, Om Iwan (“Om” is “Uncle” in Indonesian)

This is my favorite uncle whose a pilot from my dad’s side.He is one of the excellent pilots of Garuda Indonesia, and has brought many planes from Seattle to Indonesia. (That’s something huh.) He has always been the most exciting, adventurous and kindest uncle that ever lived. When I was still a kid, he would always kidnap me to go out of the city to have an adventure… Whether it was going to the beach to chill and eat barbecue fish and drink coconut right from the tree or even just chilling, watching the latest movie in the theaters. He has always been a very happy person. And as years gone by, we had connected again through the same hobby that we both have, which is photography.  So one day, I introduced him to Toble (if you read my previous blogs) , and we exchanged our love for cameras and I notice he had a hand-grip strap for his camera, which I have been looking for. After a while we haven’t met for quite a while, he says to pick something from his house, and it was a hand-grip strap! AHH!! Awesomeness.

So he told me to drop by his place to get it anytime I can. Knowing that he usually flies off to who knows where, sometimes, to Europe, or Australia, Japan. I would never know whether he’s in town or not. I decided to drop by one day. Didn’t expected him to be home, but as I was leaving after receiving the small gift, he drives in his garage just in time to chat with me. It was nice to talk to him again. Always admired him since I was a kid. Told him to ask my dad to go cycling on Sundays. He gladly agreed to it and asked my dad to join him that Sunday morning.

3. Mba Dinar (“Mba” is called “Sister” in Indonesian)

A lovely working mother of two whom I met because a dear friend Afra, referred me to her as a freelance writer. Mba Dinar needed someone to write for her upcoming website next year, and needed someone who can connect and share her vision, translating it all to an inspirational journey. After all the bbm texts, phone calls, only-one-time meeting, we met again for the second time for a 2 hour interview. If I was going to write about her, I needed all the information I can get by asking her questions of her visions and dreams about her new upcoming business plan she was going to make. That Saturday morning, I had a one-to-one session with her in a small coffee shop in Kemang, and thankfully, we had the place to ourselves, where it was just quietly set up for us both. I recorded our conversations through my laptop, enjoyed and exchanged of common principals in life. She had a great desire to help others and to come across someone like her is very hard to find these days. A soft, melancholic lady with a heart of gold for me, she was a figure of a big sister I long wanted. A person with gave you the touch of words that made you feel good about yourself and never tried hard to please  you.

Our conversations had lifted my heart, my own desires in life. Funny thing is that I felt really connected to this lady that I have only known for a couple of days. I only prayed under my breath that she will be the one of my mentors in life. 🙂

4. Ibu Nuning (“Ibu” is “Mrs / Madam” in Indonesian) 

Last Sunday, I paid a visit to SOS Children’s Village again to also donate my old books and toys to the kids there, and met Ibu Nuning. A lady who has been working for SOS and the kids for 27 years now. I thought she was amazing, her love towards the kids and her job has made me look upon myself and wonder if I’ll ever find that strength to go through this life. Sharing small chats, and discovering that she has already lived without her husband by her side for 13 years,but only because her husband is also working for the SOS Children Villages in Semarang, Central Java. They have this long distance marriage, and still working along fine. She said she prayed every night for strength to do as she was destined to do. And thankfully, until today, there hasn’t a day gone by that she has regret her decision. Every month she will have at least one time to go visit her husband in Semarang, but that she has gone through for 13 years. I can never imagine what she is going through, but I am so sure, she is blessed and well taken care of by God himself. God bless her for her love towards the things she goes through in life.

So these are the people I’ve come across last week, that has given me more meaning to my life. These small and long chats are the fruits of my life that I never replace… Thank you God…

Small and Long Chats

Found Treasure!

a lousy day today. woke up too late. didn’t know what to do. not really good for me but i got back on my feet again, when i helped mom to clear some boxes in the gallery room. we all sorted out the boxes we’ve never touched since we moved to our current address. 

looking over boxes to boxes, i found the most precious, priceless treasure of all, a box filled with photo albums and inside were photos of my late grandfather. with his wife and only son, my dad! ahhhh it was such a refreshing feeling to find those albums and looked over them and got me thinking clearer again. on my life and how i wanted to be later. i wanted to be like my grandfather. a person with great charisma, pride and he went around the world. he was heard, and respected. going through the pages of the photo albums, oh how long i wish he could be here right now, and tell me stories of his past.. i’m so proud i can’t even describe it at all. 

i want to be as ‘rich’ as he was. i really do. Image

Found Treasure!

A Gift that Would Be My Investment For Life

Please please don’t look at it as a blog of bragging, please read it as a blog of saying my gratitudes.

On the 8th of July, my dad had dragged me to a camera store that day to buy me a new camera.

So yes, I’ve been playing with cameras since I was a girl, I’ve always been fascinated with cameras and video cameras and so back in 2003, my dad bought me my first digital camera, Canon 300D. A 3 digit Canon camera, that was good enough to take shoots and practice my “eye”. Then 2007, I was able to upgrade it to the 400D, and gave my 300D to my sister. Hooray! I was psych and did many photographs with it. Brought it everywhere I went and took thousands of photos. Events, self-portraits, adventures, music concerts, everything. I felt safe and confident with that camera. It gave me life.

As years gone by, and real life was at your door step, I lost touch of my fellow friend, I had to work and none of my job needed a camera in my hands. I grew apart from my camera and did not use it as much anymore. We drifted apart, and automatically, I started to be depressed and lonely. I kept on looking at the camera and wanting to hold it like before with no regrets, but this time, I couldn’t take pictures like usual.

Then after feeling a bit distant with my camera and that things weren’t going so good in my work place, I got to hold my camera again. Make a few pictures with it, and then realized that I missed my camera too much. And had to do something about it. I missed taking pictures and uploading it to my blog and write about them and so I started doing it all over again. This had lead my dad to see what I was truly passionate for. My pictures, my photography, I adored pictures ever since I was a kid and I can never lay off my eyes on images that move me.

I’ve always dreamt to have a really badass camera one day. A camera that most professional photographers consume. The Canon 5D Mark II. Back in 2008, it had been released and proclaimed as one of the best professional camera that can be consumed by just anybody. It had FULL HD Video, that can record moving images as well. Back then, until 2012, if I had that camera in my hands, I’m a goner. As in, it’ll make my life complete and I’ll just do photography and videos for the rest of my life. I actually said that to my dad one night.

Just months ago, one of my closest friend, Avie, asked me to meet up with his friend too, about making an experimental short film together. To be honest, I wasn’t too sure of it back then. I had a job, and I can’t really get out of. And kinda felt lost cause I too, didn’t have a camera that really could soar to the max. We had to rent it out, and that takes a lot of money as well. So I thought, well, it’ll happen when it happens. We were also talking about this badass new camera that came out, which was the Canon 5D Mark III. It was the latest and had new features that would maximize the video record and all sorts. It was a dream to have that in my hands. Just merely a dream.

But a miracle happened, like I told you before, our Bali land was sold and well, we were able to start over with our lives. Picking up the pieces, it was such a blessing for my family, we can’t thank God for this precious gift. Grateful for this miracle…  which led to my dad dragging me to the camera store. He saw my wishlist and was observing, and told me, “I’m going to buy you a new camera, but it should be able to produce more.” I was shocked and so thrilled, I was speechless. He searches for the latest cameras in the store and picks the new and latest Canon. The 5D Mark III. The ultimate camera to make my dreams come true. It was in my hands. I took it and held it and never felt so real in my entire life. I’ve held the 5D Mark II, but this was a brand new 5D… its insane!! I was screaming inside, I couldn’t be more happier in my life at that moment.

So my dad gave me a gift, a gift that would be my investment for life and I really really need to set things right and make this my life. My one and only. I just hope I’ll be able to get a job that would really make me have time to learn more about this funky ass gadget of mine. And I gave my new member a name now, its name is “Toble” from Toblerone cocktail… (my favorite cocktail drink at the moment)

I’m truly blessed and so grateful… and yes, I need to set things straight and make this a real investment for my life! YEAY!

A Gift that Would Be My Investment For Life